hey i'm ryan. i'm 21 & i live in minneapolis. i'm a taurus to the fullest extent. fyi, this description scrolls.
i like edm a lot and i work for a promotion company that puts on shows and music festivals where i live and all over the midwest. i help promote events, help with stage design and production, and work with artist relations. i love what i do and would love to continue working in the music biz as i continue to grow and develop.
i like to explore and expand my mind and to look at the size of the entire universe and feel how insignificant and small all of us as humans walking on this planet are. i find slight humor when people get caught up in all their "problems" because they don't really mean anything, and nor do any of us. but alas, we are still here - and making our lives as great as possible sure is absolutely something that's necessary. and it can get hard. but i admire those that are able to take a step back and look at the bigger picture.
i enjoy meditating, yoga, and breathing. i love sitting outside on the deck of my apartment looking at the trees and sky as cars drive by with a lit cigarette in my hand. marlboro 27's. i like being by myself and i like being in a huge crowd of people full of beautiful energy. i'm an introvert but by no means am i shy or quiet, but i do require time to recharge my energy levels. i like to look deep within people and discover the unique beauty everyone has within their souls. i care less and less about outer physical appearances but yearn to learn more about what makes an individual who they are within.
i wish i read more books. i spend a lot of my free time on the internet and hanging out with my friends. i like to think that i am a kind, sensitive, and genuine person. i have experimented with many chemicals that alter an individual's mind and consciousness and i truly believe there are certain ones that provide an extremely positive and helpful experience to a person, just like i believe there are certain ones that do more harm than good. the two that i will always speak highly of are MDMA and LSD.
as much as this description about myself so far probably makes me sound like a really spiritual and well rounded person, i still struggle a lot with depression and anxiety and addiction. overall i'd say i'm an easy person to be around, but the closer you get to me the more flaws you will see. none of us are perfect, but i really beat myself up over some of the things i do. and i'm thankful for those that stick around and love me regardless. i'm a really lucky person to have the people in my life that i do.
i live on my own and i stay close with my family as much as possible. i love cats and taco bell is one of my guiltiest pleasures. i drink a lot of caffeine and consume a lot of dextroamphetamine and alprazolam and diacetylmorphine. i listen to a lot of music, ranging from turning the fuck up with flosstradamus to screaming my angsty heart out with taking back sunday. road trips with friends are one of my favorite things to do. traveling to music festivals, laughing, crying, having heart to hearts, having sex with the person i love and am fully committed to, connecting with others, and widening my horizons as much as possible are probably some of the most beautiful things i find in this world. i don't think i'll live to be of old age, but i do think i'll live my life to the absolute fullest. it's been a hell of a journey so far.
my blog pretty much consists of everything i enjoy and hopefully offers a little bit more of what i'm all about. i've been on this site since 2010, but i just recently started this blog in december of 2013. if you have any questions about anything, feel free to contact me.